Nghia

neglected

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 14:36:50 GMT

wonder if you know how much i love you foos..

yo..holla at your boy:

and tomorrow is the future

when home gets mixed up with words

but your voice still sounds

like my girl

i want & live to retract

lose myself in the past

shine heaven upon me

lord knows i'm worthy

bringing smile and glory

and a second chance at life

so sleep the next few hours

in healthy glows of beauty

then wake me up to love you

my duty

one baby to another says

i'm lucky to have met you

and i will gaurantee you're happy

i'll bet you

you may meet a million

i may be numba twenty three

yeah you could love a million

and none of them will be me.

God bless you..

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 19:55:34 GMT

Flowers borne from tears

the kind could wash away

a lifetime

holding fast to hopes

for those who have you

against ropes

praying for them..praying

like trees

ancient, majestic trees

that succomb to wind,

air..

it's not fair

so you think he'll

never come for you

when he has

and is on his way back

like mountains

colossal and forever

that give way to rain...water...

this valley of your life

will too subside

like oceans...emotions.

last night

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 16:40:09 GMT

5 bands 6 kegs 10 bucks which was the killer part and met a cool as hell chick ,i am talking marrying material (maybe) another cool part

i distinctly remember talking to her about hanging out and i remmeber beginning to add her number to my phone..but on the way home i go to look for it and could't find it .???

this is one of those times when i hate my "things happen for a reason" attitude
i am telling you all she was awesome.

sorry just had to get that out.

By the way

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 04:56:55 GMT

if the link doesn't work please just type it in and go there.thanks again.

PLEASE HELP OUT

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 04:55:20 GMT

this is too easy to do ..to not .

please go and click on feed the animals .Everyday if you can and ask your friends to do the same.The puppies and kitties thank you.

Animal Rescue Site is
having trouble getting enough people to click
on it daily to meet
their quota of getting free food donated every
day to abused and
neglected animals.

It takes less than a minute to go to their site
and click on "feed
an animal in need" for free. This doesn't cost
you a thing. Their
corporate sponsors/advertisers use the
number of daily visits to
donate food to abandoned/neglected animals
in exchange for
advertising.

Here's the web site! Pass it along to people
you know.

[url]http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com[/url]

--girl on a screen--

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 06:16:24 GMT

sink your teeth into the fact that this existence is only temporary
be still your heart ...keep it in ..and want to come with me..

i've only brought you here to let you go

and i don't have to tell you because you know
when this river runs dry and it won't

you'd have to find a new love to call home

reasons why i'm still alive shine and burn me,
focus your eyes...
i'm the one
but won't be... can't be everytime

God bless you all-Nghia

it's been so long

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 23:12:55 GMT

i come in here once in awhile to see how you all are,but haven't posted in months.

hope everyone is doing aight ,myself i am in the midst of painting,the house that is.

the weather had been making a turn for the sunnier but today it is raining.

if you all ever want to chat on aim i am - chinostar73

rosie imma make it up to there sometime and claim my bracelet

that's all for now no poems no nada.

take care -nghia

Sunday evening..

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 01:52:03 GMT

i can't wait until i've my own family and my own house with an enormous kitchen so all my friends and family can come over on sunday nights and i will hook up the bomb spread and we will all eat and drink and laugh and love each other.

I need to find a job first..it's not i haven't been trying, but i guess i need to try harder.

hope you all have been well..it seems like forever since i've been around..

have a good week.-N

Merry Christmas!!

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 20:13:32 GMT

I hope you all have wonderful holiday's and drunk and slurring new years eve.

peace and love ....

happy Christmas eve you all..

Wed, 24 Dec 2003 21:31:32 GMT

"the King of Monkeys,using his magic pole ,polevaults away in to the sky.He's off to war and party.His patriotic people beat the taiko big drums,a beat that he can hear and take heart from."

Warm sun feed me up ...

-Nghia

What's up my People !!??!!

Mon, 22 Dec 2003 21:21:15 GMT

One family Christmas party down ..one more to go..i need a beer.i actually had a couple Heinekens over at my dads last night but i'm talking heavy throwing back with the coors light!!probably not today though.Does that make me sound like an alki??oh well ..i know the truth..

it't been good to hang with the family the last two days..looking forward to wed.
I truly hope you all have a Merry Christmas..mmkay?

you said you would..love to try some ...
you said you would...love to die some time..in the middle of the world on a chain ,you're the wave you're the wave..you're the wahave....

Saturday

Sat, 13 Dec 2003 23:14:22 GMT

You hold my heart..barely balanced
on these two fingers..
the one's i make my peace sign with

and i blow you a kiss.

Just like i cannot expect
myself to be enough for you
two million destinations
one thousand conclusions to come to

but in this moment,we are sharing..
let it be like three
thousand bolts of lightning.

always with you, the only
thing i cannot guarantee
but when i'm not,
i hope you continue inspiring..
with progressive tendencies.

inhale for you
but know what you exhale affects
while simple minds might straight
miss it..
your peace may lead to my success

and ..then there was today

Wed, 10 Dec 2003 22:15:56 GMT

today..sure feels a lot like yesterday..odd, the same. yet different..did i grow at all today..not really ..not yet..but later on before i go to bed i will read ..and surely i will learn something new then.how many days left unti l christmas???i am thinking this year i will just make an enormous batch of candles of all sizes and put them in a basket and say here family, Merry Christmas..and let them pick which ones they want.i had better start soon.okay.that's all for now..

drop the shock and make like life is good again...continuing would be hard to do without you.

today

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 17:28:50 GMT

Today doesn't feel as bad as the last twenty six..i am remembering how to live with myself and to be happy with and for everything i have..rather than what i think i want.

i would like to move to a sunny locale..say hawaii or costa rica and live in a tent on the beach for a few months.anyone wanna come?

we want the world and we want it ...now.

Twisters and Shouters

Mon, 01 Dec 2003 18:57:37 GMT

In the tenderloin,depressed and unemployed,Wittman Ah Sing felt a bad kind of freedom.Agoraphobic on Market Street,ha ha.There was nowhere he had to be,and noboby waiting to hear what happened to him today.Fired.Aware of Emptiness now. Ha Ha.A storm will blow from the ocean or down from the mountain and knock the set of the City down.If you dart quick enough behind the stores,you'll see that they are stage flats propped up.On the other side of them is ocean forever,and the great Valley between the Coast Range and the Sierras.Is that snow on Mt.Shasta?

peace,love and self confidence

Happy Thanksgiving

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 19:10:33 GMT

today i am thankful for my friends and family ( though i am the worst at showing it),I am also thankful that i am able to breathe and smile and walk and talk and write and work .i am also thankful that i haven't been picked up on that outstanding warrant yet.joke.

Today, he was in love with the world.

Odiyan

Tue, 25 Nov 2003 18:56:13 GMT

i called about the Buddhist volunteering project today and to be honest am not quite sure what to think.here's the skinny..I'd have to find my way down to northern cali. commit to a minimum of nine months in either bronze casting of Buddhist statues or the actual construction of a Buddhist temple.They would put me up in "nice " housing as she put it and give me food.also they would give me $150 a month of which in nine months i wouldn't spend a dime so would = $1260 when i was done.Wow but to be a part of something like this will give me the sense of self worth that has for some reason deserted me lately.if i go it wouldn't be until after the new year.they are sending the application in the mail.i have butterflies.peace.

Monday

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 16:42:38 GMT

I'm going to make the call today to find out more about this going to Cali. and building a Buddhist temple project.It seems like destiny with where i am at and how i am feeling these days.I just need something more than what is going on right now.wish me luck.

Thanksgiving is in three days..I think i will go to the mission and have dinner with the homeless.

Spirituality

Mon, 17 Nov 2003 15:38:50 GMT

i want to marry Ally Hilfiger..i almost mispelled Hilfiger, so i had to look on my boxers...Ally if you read this somehow ..call me 425 879 1221 that's my cell number, so you can reach me at any hour.and Natalie Portman ,if you see this, Let's do lunch..i'll have my people contact your people.-ciao

these things

Sat, 15 Nov 2003 21:14:30 GMT

these things (live journals) are only good when things are going shitty and i haven't any one else to talk to .oh smell i'm the only one who reads this thing anyway.

i am going into seattle in a couple hours and i'm gonna paint the town red. peace.

Thu, 13 Nov 2003 22:10:28 GMT

New layout by me!

Enjoy dear.

<3 Beata pixeedust66

and i forget just why i taste..oh yeah ..i guess.. it makes me smile.

Thu, 13 Nov 2003 02:36:49 GMT

she ripped from me
my heart and everything
in one crazy moment
and i'm snapped back
to this reality.

bruised egos won't appease me
all i have is what i see
and i can count it all
on just three

fingers,eyes..body and soul
i'll survive
though go alone
was it what i did
or did not show?
how come something
never tells me?

when the train comes roaring
towards this unknown
i'll have hoped to catch
the last one home

my final ride..
i'd have guessed it you and i

the last time with you
seems my prize
for living my life
with these eyes glued

shut the door
leave silently
as i'm trying to
convince myself
she hasn't the best of me.

Today

Wed, 12 Nov 2003 19:38:50 GMT

i am emptying out my life..or most of it and starting over..there is no reason for me to feel this way..i have faith in myself and all what i've been blessed with.those who would like to come along..please do..those who don't sayonara.

solidify the temporary
bring smile and ask softly
this impression first
hopefully the worst
it only gets better she said
you being the one
smelling good with
masculine undertones
it's been it seems forever
since i've received
something like you
i had begun
to give up on the world.

-nghia

My trip to Olympia

Mon, 10 Nov 2003 16:54:17 GMT

So i honestly don't know how the f i do this to my self..i got down to Oly. about three o clock..everything was going fine and dandy..help her set up her house for the party and fix myself a rum and coke..well maybe four hundred drinks and beers later and about 4 hours i decide that mo is not paying enough attention to me and i need to talk to her..WTf??? ..when did the whole jealousy demon decide to reenter my life??? only when i'm loaded i think.so i should point out that we are not dating and never have...i met her when we worked at a coffee shop together two years ago.we have remained in pretty good contact however our communications seem a bit off...i have a mild crush on her but it hit me full blown this night...so anyhow i go off about having come 100 miles to be with her and how her actions are definitive and all this other crazy shit..about how i had faith that she'd be the one and i even brought up marriage...again WTF???the last three years we are cool as ice and then i freaked out..well i wanted to leave that night...drive the said 100 miles..back home wasted..but thank god noone would let me.see i think everything would have been cool except the fact i had to ask to have some time alone to talk to her but looking back they're were tons of people who came to see her for her birthday and i was being very selfish.if i had to pick a girlfriend today mo would be my unnanimimous choice..except for the fact that i don't think she feels the same about me..and that is a huge detail...i still don't really know but i think i do at the same time...i drove home the next morning numb..wondering why the night went nothing like i had hoped...and why i was driving home already...pissed and doing 95 the whole way...well i went home..took a long nap and woke up to find a text message from mo...bottom line ..we are cool...meaning we can hang out..but the more we do..the more i like her...HELP!!

Olympia

Fri, 07 Nov 2003 15:54:14 GMT

so mo is turning 21 this weekend ..well monday but i am going down there tomorrow(sat.) to her birthday party..i am pretty excited b/c i always love seeing her.I am going to write her a poem and frame it and give it to her ..this one

last time i saw her

she was smiling..shining

just like i'd left her

pure..self assured and priceless

like a star

more like the brightest.

hope she likes it..-peace and love ya'all